College Life

Now that it is finally May it is beginning to hit me that at the end of this month I will no longer be a high school student and will be graduated and be an alumni of the NDA. Now that I sit down and think about it I get a little bit scared and worry about how I am going to survive in college. With yesterday being the last day of uniforms it also dawned on me that for the past 13 years of my life I never had to worry about what I wear of how I look. Now I am going to have to go out and buy clothes and worry about my hair and what other people think about how I look. Something I might be prepared for but at the same time am not sure how I am going to do it. Another difference I am going to have to adjust with is the boys. I know it won't be a big deal but it is something that I worry about because who wouldn't. We've been to an all girls high school for four years of our life and now in our classes we are going to have guys sitting next to us even. That's not what I'm really concerned about, but what really gets to me is how I am going to be able to survive on my own. For the past 18 years I have lived with my parents and for 13 years of my life I've shared a room with my sister. She has been my roommate for so  long I'm afraid I am going to end up with a psycho roommate who does not get me at all and it is going to be a nightmare. These are all the little things I am scared about and for good reasons. This is a new territory I am entering and I need to enter with caution. At the beginning of high school teachers would ask me what I wanted to do when I get older and I would say some random things not really knowing what I wanted to do with myself, but now I finally do. I have transitioned from a CSI investigator, to a lawyer, to a forensic scientist, to wanting to go into business law. Who even knows maybe that is going to change for me too because change is inevitable. Change is the way of life and how we adapt to the world. Even though I am scared I am happy at the same time because this is my opportunity to go out into the world and meet new people. I can show them how great of a person I am and have n baggage of my past haunting me. It is almost like a new slate that I get and I am going to seize that opportunity without any hesitation. SNHU is going to be my new home for the next four years of my life and I am going to have to make it the best damn time of my life because I am never going to get that moment back when I first start college. It will be a day to remember and many memories to make along the way. As I leave my friends and family behind, I am not really leaving them but learning to make it out there in the real world because one day I am going to have to do it for real. Just go out there and be who you want to be and strive for the best you can do!